For the longest time my focus has been to find the right answer. The right answer to what I’m supposed to do with life and how I’m supposed to get there. It’s really interesting to me how quickly I go back to that in most scenarios that I find myself in.
Even when I make a choice on what I’m going to do - right after I make that choice what am I presented with? Another opportunity to make the right choice. What happens? I get stuck trying to figure out what the right one is.
I have discovered, which is no discovery at all, that life is nothing but a never ending process of making choices and then seeing what choices are presented from making the previous choice.
“I want to start writing.” “Ok, where are you going to write?”
“I am going to post videos on YouTube.” “Great, when are you going to post and what are you going to post about?”
“I’m going to start working out.” “That’s excellent, what kind of work outs, how often, and what gym are you going to join.”
Nothing but decisions. I thought I was really doing something by making a decision. Yes, a single decision. Once that happened I thought I had it all figured out. No, no, no. I found myself right back where I started.
What can I take away from this? There is no right decision. There is simply the decision that I made. Might some be better than others? Definitely. Some decisions come with more benefits, some might dig the whole a bit deeper, while some lift you up closer to where I want to be. Along the way I am definitely improving at the skill. Being able to understand better what will lift me up as opposed to set me back is becoming more apparent and clear, which is great. I am also able to make decisions faster. That mostly comes from finally understanding that all decisions come with benefits and hinderances.
The important thing is that from all of these decisions, and sometime the decision to not decide, comes lessons. They all provide an opportunity to learn. A major benefit, outside of actually being in action and building momentum, is that I can learn from the decisions made. Sometimes that lesson can be how well something turned out. I look forward to those. On the other side, there are those that feel like a switch fist to the stomach. Yes, those do happen. I feel like I’m getting a lot of those right now, in quick succession, due to looking back on the past 10 years or so of decisions that I have made. Though those may not be as fun, they are as, if not more, valuable.
The key is that I get up and keep going, wipe the dust off my shoulders and understand that many great people before me have made mistakes as well, some even more grande than the one that I just made. Falling down is part of life. If I don’t skin my knee from time to time I’m not taking advantage of this gift that I have been given. To exist in this world at this time. I need to use it to fullest.