Something that I have never really considered is that no matter what I do I am still going to be me at the end of the day. No matter what I do, I am still going to have the same values, I am going to care about the same things, I am going to be looking to create the same results. The only thing that is different is the means by which I create them.
People have made a lot of money through so many different avenues. People have created fame for themselves, notoriety, legacy, respect… there is not just one way to create that result.
I woke up this morning with the realization that I find it foolish to talk about personal development. Who am I to talk about that? I’ve told myself that it’s stupid to follow some of the other interests that I’ve had. It is incredibly difficult to find a vocation when I immediately negate any idea that comes to me or disqualify myself as soon as an interest takes hold.
Whether it’s making videos about self improvement, philosophy, psychology, Minecraft or Rocket League the goal will always be the same. I want to have fun, I want to connect with people, and I want to lift people up. I want to improve. I want to challenge myself. I want to explore my curiosities and see what’s at the end of the tunnel. I love people, I really enjoy putting a smile on the faces of others and being a light in the day for others.
Convincing myself that there was only one specific way that could happen for me in this life or that there was only one thing that I could do to make that happen has made it a lot more difficult than it needed to be over the past decade.
I’m not really sure how this might benefit you at this time, but it was important enough to me to write down so here we are. I guess my goal moving forward isn’t having the perfect job for me it’s more about continuing to be the best version of myself that I can and doing things that help me explore what that might be.
The other side of that is making more. Taking all of the ideas and possibilities and seeing what’s on the other side. For the past five years I have gotten all of these silly ideas and then immediately negated them because it was taking away from the one thing… when there wasn’t even a one thing because I was too stuck on trying to figure out what that one thing was.
I don’t know that there is one thing so much as there is one thing that just starts working as so we stick with it. Then we just hope and pray that one thing also brings us some joy, happiness, and the amount of money that we would like to see in our bank accounts.
I’ve been trying, for a long time, to figure out what a thing is… not one thing.. a thing.. by doing something like this, typing about it. Now it’s time to actually take some action and try things on.